I keep telling myself that everyone does not need to like me. I don't need to be friends, or even on good terms with every single individual in my life. I've always had that problem. I don't enjoy being disliked. I assume no one enjoys it, but I really let it get to me if someone doesn't at least think that I'm a good person. But it is hard sometimes. It's been hard lately.
One time, my wife, a few friends and I went to Varadero, Cuba. We decided to take one of those Catamaran excursions. While out on the boat, my friend and I met a family from Quebec. The more and more we talked with this family, the more and more it seemed apparent that they much preferred the company of my friend. Their conversations flowed, where our seemed labored. They shared laughs where we shared awkward stares. They related to each other while we seemed to remain strangers. Several days later, I ran into that family at a flea market downtown. We smiled, we said hello, they asked where my friend was, I told them he wasn't with me and things basically ended there. I would like to believe that I didn't say or do anything to put these people off. Sometimes, it just doesn't work out the way you thought it would.
Pretty recently, a co-worker of mine, became engaged to be married. I say "co-worker" because I feel odd saying that we are friends. I thought we were friends. Maybe we are friends. Just not good friends, maybe. I thought we were good friends. Good enough to be invited to his wedding. Which I was not. He's been having some ordeals with people RSVP'ing to the wedding the past several weeks. Taking into account that I don't have an RSVP card to RSVP with, must mean that he is not expecting any type of response if I will be attending or not. I am 100% sure that it is not a matter of not wanting me at his wedding. Him and I are friendly and are on great terms. Sometimes, it just doesn't work out the way you thought it would.
There are times where you just expect things to be happy and good, but they just are not. When someone marries into your family, I think there is an expectation for you to be friends. It almost seems foreign when you and that other person just don't mesh. I realize that sometimes I come across as abrasive. It is a trait that many people can take the wrong way, especially in a social media setting where tone is absent. However, when you and a person have known one and other for more than twenty years, those misunderstandings simply become examples of being incompatible. The two of you are just not meant to be friends. I am who I am and they are who they are and eventually you realize that the two of you just don't mix. And that is more than okay. Especially when you only see or speak to that person once in a calendar year. It's not a matter of disliking or wishing bad things on that person. Sometimes, it just doesn't work out the way you thought it would.
The Shin Kicker says take the Q-Tip out of your ear.
- Matthew Terry
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